collecting newspaper cum mc burfdae

woohoo~ great day yesterday
went to toa payoh to collect old newspaper
to raise funds for the school's pocket money fund
then the trip there was horrifically exciting
here's a short summary of what happened:


1. my hp no batt
2. xue got onto the wrong bus (156)
3. ended up at somewhere unfamiliar
4. took 147 towards hougang
5. i met zhiying at the bus stop near my house
6. waited for 3 159's and xue haven come
7. check my hp xue say she lost ask me call her asap
8. walk home all the way from hougang point,
to borrow hp from ah di
9. finally met up wif xue; and then chun


then when they collect newspaper
i sit down there like a retard
helping to look after their bags
just because i sprained my ankle last tue
then still haven't fully recover
sat there until i almost fell asleep


so after the 3rd block i exchange with freddy
ask him look after the bags for me
then i went up with jie they all
so fun to go out and do the job
rather then sitting there beat houseflies


then the whole collection ended that time
jie and me go junction 8 first to order cake
while the rest stayed back to wait for the truck
and load the newspapers onto it
so we went to mac chop place and waited
and waited and waited for the rest to turn up
in the end the truck arrived very late and
we waited till very paiseh for chopping the seats


when we were waiting there was entertainment
we saw ann kok, mark lee, mc king, and
many of the 梁家班's actors and actresses
then also got a stretch of people queueing up
to wait for 廓建华's autograph session


but when the burfdae gurl finally arrived
we order food like normal act act like usual days
then finish our food the guys went to bring the cake
singing the burfdae as they bring the cake in
really had lots of fun with the cake, dry ice, and stuffs
we fooled around so much with the ice
then did alot of stupid things too
can't wait till i get the photos from daniel

new blorggy

i'm gonna change my blogskin really soon!!
getting sick of my current one
i wan something plain yet exotic
simple and nice ba
going to make one myself
=)

school totally sucks (bleurgh!)

"if child abuse is illegal,
why are there schools?"

a quote i saw on the school table today
ain't it cool, or what huh?!




i just don't understand
why do we have to go to school,
when whatever we learn
is no longer applicable to the job
we're going to take in the future




like what? you're going to use integration
to find how much your lunch cost you
with respect to your salary??? wth




it's especially torturous when
once in a blue moon i got curious
and further asked questions to learn
and the dumbass teacher actually replies:
"oh, that's not in syllabus, no need to know"




schools were set up to teach us skills
things that will be useful in society
to prepare for our working phase in life
not to take that disgusting exam paper


so what if you scored terrifically in A's?
does that reflect how employable you really are?

argh~

why do i feel so farking left out?
out of the 4 gurls in the lesson plan
only i am in the "other" group
i don't want to feel jealous or anything
but why do i feel as if i wasn't told of something?


why? all the 3 of them are there tog
xue is also there with them
although i know it isn't right to say so
but i feel my group has got the
"less responsive" people
(as in people we mix lesser with)
so much for being their close friends ha~
they threw me into the lava pool


sometimes i really feel they very fake
and i think they really are
their behaviours and little actions
spoke the thousand million words
that they try to hide in their speech
i don't like you guys!
but i ain't gonna show it to you
because i'm going to retaliate
i know it sounds childish but
i hate you! (there i said it)


"an eye for an eye"


i shall treat you the way you treat me
that's what the world is like
to survive you cannot show people
your true colours maybe
except those that i believe in
whom i have already shown
i lurve you guys and gurls~

online on monday

lalala~


so happy can come online on weekday
but wrong day to choose too
because today got tonnes of work!
alot of things started piling up recently
workload in school obviously increased
by leaps and bounds (*exponentially*)


then the frequency of guitar practices
is so farking intimidating
now i practically got guitar practices
3 out of 5 days in school
hopping mad!!! argh!!!


haha~ but i believe i can cope
信就可以，不信就不可以
that's what i learnt from the show
我和僵尸有个约会 III
a very nice show so nice,
i left my work aside to watch
during the first week of school
talk about 发奋图强 huh?


anyway supposed to come online
to meet this friend
because she got some instructions to pass
then no time to meet in school
so she say come online at 9
then i still cannot see any ghostly image of her
kena p-s le lah! humph~


=)

so yesterday - hilary duff

So Yesterday - Hilary Duff


You can change your life - if you wanna
You can change your clothes - if you wanna
If you change your mind
Well, that's the way it goes


But I'm gonna keep your jeans
And your old black hat - cause I wanna
They look good on me
You're never gonna get them back


At least not today, not today, not today'cause


[Chorus:]
If it's over, let it go and
Come tomorrow it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
I'm just a bird that's already flown away
Laugh it off let it go and
When you wake up it will seem
So yesterday, so yesterday
Haven't you heard that
I'm gonna be okay


You can say you're bored - if you wanna
You can act real tough - if you wanna
You can say you're torn
But I've heard enough


Thank you... you made my mind up for me
When you started to ignore me
Do you see a single tear
It isn't gonna happen here
At least not today, not today, not today'cause


[Chorus]


If you're over me, I'm already over you
If it's all been done, what is left to do
How can you hang up if the line is dead
If you wanna walk, I'm a step ahead
If you're moving on, I'm already gone
If the light is off then it isn't on


At least not today, not today, not today'cause


[Chorus 2X]

reality life

not say i want to say ah
but i learnt something today
which i must put down


>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
in reality,
everyone puts on a mask everyday
to face this society; to face this world
like it or not you've got to accept it
accept it and move on
because that is the way this world works
harsh fact, but that's reality for you
<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<


anyway i was complaining to my mother
about feeling used by this friend of mine
(whom i feel is like trying to use money
to buy my friendship and me over lah)
when my dad came home in a good mood
(i think partly because he drank a little)
and he sat down and shared his experience


as a salesman he is always out doing business,
so obviously he see alot of things happening
then he was telling me how he was helping out
at someone else's store the whole of ytd and today
just to gain a little more business (commission!!)
so that was exactly like what i was feeling
( _ that's this world huh _)


my dad also said alot of things more
like how he outdo his senior colleague
how everyone only likes to hear sweet-talks
making them feel more superior and important
before they are willing to do what they have to do
how surviving in this world today is so hard
and stuffs like that


now that's reality life for you
disappointing but it's the cold hard fact
everyone just got to learn to put up with it
and move on
=)


however i feel very fortunate
to have a close and caring family
something i only learnt recently
a little late, but better late than never
at least i feel now that i can tell them
everything on anything around me
whether i'm pissed, glad, sad or whatever
i know someone will listen to me
kao peh-ing and even kao peh with me
also i have a bunch of real good buddies
my confidentes whom
i also share everything with
everything, right down to my lunch


thank you guys sooooooooo much
just for being around and there for me
* i love you guys * [hugx hugx]

私は怒っている子供である
i am an angry kid

この世界はどこかおかしくないですか?

what is wrong with this world?

ha~

i'm jus an angry kid
trying to act tame
anytime any moment
i may explode
for god knows what reasons
=)

hmm..some things i need to buy..

i swear i'm gonna get myself a new fan
to put in my study room
the current one that i have
it's squeaking away as i'm typing this post


also i need a table lamp
cos my study table the angle not right
than when i do homework
i always block my own light
making me hate doing homework
(haha u may say: excuses.. yeah it may be)


lastly i dun mind a mp3 player
hehe it'll be good for a change
and can listen to clearer music on the bus
cos my current hp reception not very clear
then i also don't know why
don't quite like listening to fm radio recently
prefer to listen to mp3 on pc
but then waste electricity to on pc all day
(but i just realised - mp3 player cnt play wma?)
my recently dl-ed songs are all wma format


sometimes it's jus so nice
to be able to day dream huh
they may not come true
but dream abit also not bad what~
just don't push my luck too far
=)

明天会更好

i jus neva seem to do
wad i say i plan to do
doing lotsa stupid things lately
i noe it's too much to wish for
but i hope those that i had hurt
will forgive me
however,
tml will alwix be better


"always look on the bright side of life"


=)

why?

why do i still feel so sore?
why do i still mind so much?



it's already been so many days
it's already declared




'games over'



so why does it still feel like ytd?



i shudn't be so selfish
let bygones be bygones
forget bout everything
start life anew



=)

a sianful sunday

guess i reali recover le
at least i tink thru le la
but hor
am i reali v naive?
haha
but i tot innocence is sweet?
esp on me?
readers dun vomit
jus joking
=P

last post.. till a'lvl finish..

i dunno
if i did the rite ting or not
lying isn't exactli my forte
but i was telling a white lie
so may i be forgiven?


dis time, no tears nth
jus an aching sensation
sth dat will go as time passes
i wonder how u are
doubt we can still be frens huh?
i reali dunno wad to say le..


wad's done cnt be undone
i dun wan to tink too much
den regret bout wad i did
no pt crying over spilled water


neva realised
how much i had hurt my mum
wad was i tinking
grow up gur, n be strong
dun make mummy cry again


be empowered by ur brain
neva follow ur hart
being logical is the onli way
to survive in the society today


wolf in sheep's clothing?

keep rolling..

i finally experienced
wad ppl described as
"hot tears rolled down
uncontrollably"

new yr gongyo..crappified~

i dun understand why
n i no longer wish to try to understand
why haf u changed so much?
i've tried holding my temper
i gave way to u
i kept quiet
(sth i'm best at)
but u carried on


u're no longer the person i admired most
the character i looked up to is dead


she nv complained no matter how tough life got
a listening ear alwix der for me
working day in n out to make ends meet


but i guess all lives change
u were not exceptional
u changed along wif the rest of the world
for better or worst
onli u can determine that for urself


the mother bringing 3 kids up on her own
the tough woman who struggled for survival
and most importantly;
the mummy i always turned to
for comfort, advise and warmth
haf now turned into a complete stranger


menopause...
has an effect so tremendous
i no longer like to talk to u
in fact i hate to be around u
whenever i got angry wif u i kept quiet
never defied u but u keep assuming
that it was sth else tt's bothering me
sth tt alwix make me seem as if i'm so petty


i dunno why
dun ask me why
but maybe slowly
i'll get used to it
i'll grow stronger
to make up for dis emptiness
i feel now
deep deep within me




my dad
another guai4 wu4
tries his best to stay out
till nite come back
bath, chant, watch tv, sleep
even on sundays he goes out
to god-knows-where
everyday he comes home
he will definitely ask me
"wei she mo mei you bang wo tang yi?"


basically i didn't mind all dis
cos i felt dat since i stay at home
oso nv do anything so shud help him
but if he's reali so tired
where is he on sundays?
when he can rest at home?


i dun like to complain
but it's onli human to do so
and i am onli a human
so pardon me for showing
dis weak side of me


however i will grow stronger
independent of everyone
2005 shall be a year
to buff myself up
ha~ face up to life
der is no fairy tale reality
onli cold harsh brutality


however u may say
my wings haf harden can fly le
but wad i wan to say is not dis
i jus wan to grow independent
ppl say it's a gud thing
my home is still here


sumtimes i hate myself
for putting on an act in front of ppl
behaving as if everything is alrite
when i'm totally messed up inside


i can't trust ppl
like how everyone else can
sch's starting tml
the act has got to continue
let's wait and see
ACT II >> ACTION

first day of 2005~

the very first day of the yr 2005
the very first hour of the day


the lousiest way to end 2004
gave mummy see attitude
*pengx*
den is over minute matter sumore
sorrie mum~


recaps of the yr?
nah.. no need ba..
jus now sorta got some flashbacks
going thru in my mind
many 'lil 'lil tings
some sweet; some bitter
but all of dem are precious memories


poured my hart out todae
hopefully my victim
is one of the rare ppl in my life
i'm scared one day
everything will turn out to be the same
n i'll be beaten back to square one


i'm praying hard..