my my...

i wonder how natural is nature today. people intervene with nature to keep it natural. we replant trees to make up for the damage we did by logging. we open botanical gardens and zoological gardens to save the biodiversity of these species, while halfway across the globe people still continue to bring destruction to the habitats other organisms.
it took plants and animals millions of years to evolve to where we are today, but it seems that evolution is happening at a much faster pace these days.
what if we stop or dont stop many of the researches going on now? i wonder will one day human look like a butt head with a humongous brain (or two) on a puny body with equally tiny limbs that can barely support the gigantic head. that might be an interesting sight to see..

this is wang wang

check these out..
http://catscity.blogspot.com/2005/03/tua-pek-kong-temple.html
http://sundanceapril.blogspot.com/2005/06/wang-x2-this-is-wang-wang-my-er-jies.html
http://unfortunateideas.blogspot.com/2005/08/rejected-names-from-national-zoo.html

talking about talking

people tend to say things even before getting the complete picture of what is going on. admit it, not alot of us can remain calm and neutral after hearing something infuriating, and try to get the full view of what really happened before yelling the shit out of the poor ass that offended you. this situation happens too frequently. people generally base their judgement on how much they know presuming that that is the whole story. but no! more often than not they dont even know what was really going on. unless you are involved in the process you are talking about if not please save your comments to yourself. decision making process for a country is by no way an easy feat. stop complaining about the government. surely hey wont do things that will bring the destruction of the entire nation.

suddenly had the inspiration for this post after hearing tong yee's lecture and reading xiaxue and xialanxue blog. though i'm still in my jumpy and sing-song mood. yearning and itching to go k-box soon. my vocal needs practice. it's been so long since i really used it to sing a good melody. lalala~

my memory

i suddenly remembered i walked trisha to the grand stand on the last day of school! haha~ though she had to walk back after that because some teacher had a present for her. that's showing favourtism aint it. lala~
nice time with kel mel and hui today. hehe initially wanted to meet up to study. think in the end is they accompany me instead. bleah. love hanging out with them though they keep suaning me as i'm slightly slower in response (or retarded as kel puts it). haha just like the time spent together. and i got to walk! me hui and kel walked home from hougang interchange. albeit kel had to leave us too soon it was still cool hur! ^3^

zesty and exuberant

my my.. i'm affected by this good mood that cant be killed. wheeeeeeeeeee~ i have become so optimistic. i'll be happier if you're happy too. yes you, whoever you are, that is reading this post in this ulu blog of mine that no one else heard of.

well well, had an enjoyable tong yee lecture in school today. the new perspective he gave on singapore media was totally refreshing and enlightening.

recently i have been having some doubts on this world. the things i hear is happening around the globe makes me wonder is it that evolution of the human species might occur again? maybe all this dengue fever and avian diseases are here for the better of human race and the many natural disasters happening today happened because the environment is adapting to the upcoming new population of Man. others choose to derive that this spells the end of the world is near. i prefer the brighter point of view that a better tomorrow will come. what's your view?

i'm told i think too much/ maybe i do. ^^ at least i think happily now. if you have time do visit my brother's blog for i'm the one who helped him code for it. imma proud!!!

happy

lalala~ smiling~

nice nice day~ long long post/

i must say today was a very eventful day. first there was this graduation ceremony in the hall where all the awardees go on stage to receive their certs. i admit i'm a'lil envious of them for i'm not seating among them, but i seriously doubt the credibility of how some of the recipients get enlisted. maybe i was just too jealous hur? *sour-grape-me

but i loved the speeches. had thought they would be damn boring but they made me think alot. sometimes i wonder if i had bothered to take part in school activities more, will i feel as lost as i had felt when i joined ny? those people that thanked the principal so faithfully, were they truly touched by her kind soul or did they just said what they delivered as they felt they had to do so? maybe there are indeed a handful who's lives have been greatly touched by the principal and i'm just being too cynical...

following this there was refreshments which dan and gang chiong like mad and took alot. after that there was ct, where AT had his last chance to speak to us as a class. it wasnt much but i think he has a knack for saying alot with few words. kinda think i might just miss this tr years down the road...

well, school sort of ended here. the rest of the class went back pretty soon. luckily i met yuhui outside staffroom or i would have became another lost wandering soul and get stucked at home without the mood to study. then came along xueyi and we decided to go catch a MOVIE~ its a rare occasion to get to hang out with yuhui ya know. and its something i havent done in a long while now. we had haagen daaz choc single scoop. it was superb. i havent felt so pampered for so long... yum yumm~

with this hand i lift your sorrows
your cup will never be empty, for i will be your wine
with this candle, i will light your way into darkness
with this ring, i ask you to be mine

before i even left school compound though, something kinda cropped up. so i ran some of the way to the busstop and accompanied him on the bus ride home in an attempt to cheer him up. i am so glad i did it. if not god-knows-what might have happened when a person who does not have sufficient sleep is feeling upset and left alone... hope i left him smiling!

phone kinda died along the way and i committed something kinda stupid. assumptions just seem to cause alot of troubles between people huh? i'm just glad the days over.

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

unpretty by TLC

a song i cant get out of my head recently. its a pretty old song i think, but nice. sometimes i ponder what am i doing and where am i heading in life. then i start to get really confused as there are things i would like to do yet lack the courage and confidence to do so, and there are other matters that i am told needs to be done yet i dont have the enthusiasm to do them. i'm lost yet not lost amidst the rush to get good grades.. of which i think its importance have been overrated.

then i wonder what had i been doing the past 2 years? it seems almost like ytd when i was staying back in that familiar 4E1 classroom just talking, and classmates start to tear. nope i didnt feel that same melancholy today. it felt kind of different. i didnt have as much to reminisce on due to my limited participation in school activities. i regret letting my initial reservations about the school keep me distant from the school for so long, so much so that i cant recount ever coming for any of the school's competition, events or celebrations.

(btw its 2:13am__) i'm feeling unpretty also due to another reason, that is i've committed several grave mistakes that have hurt people around me. had to mention mel for i've wrongly accused her of something she didnt do intentionally. i'm really sorry. been intending to bring this up for some time but it always didnt seem right. there are a few more cases which i shall not bring up.. for fear of bringing back memories others dont want to be reminded of.

during this journey there were lots of ups and downs. i habitually over-focused on the bad times rather than the good times. the final decision shall be to post only nice happy post. even if something bad has happened, i'll only post about it when it's solved. why brood over them online when i've got friends to talk about them with?

nice wonderful people who have been willing to listen to me whine and complain: (with no regards to ranking) ivan mel kelda hui shuxuan xueyi chunying jieying mengchoo yuhui trisha..

feeling good..

the rhythm is coming back
the quickened pace of studying
the hastened speed of doing things
the urge to do more than i intended to

i want to deliver more
i believe i can do it
i am on my way to achieving it

may all the inspirations dawn on me
cant help but feel GOOD~

sian-ed & jaded

i wonder how i got sick.
so sick i never do anything for the past 2 days.
blame it on my laziness.
blame it on me for being me.
complacency sets in...

i refused to talk.
i blamed it on my sore throat.
but maybe there's another reason.
maybe i just didn't want to talk.
like how late i learnt to talk when i was a toddler.

i'm having weirder and weirder dreams.
it seems that the things i know got distorted.
and i dont know what is true anymore.
insecurity sets in.
cant help but feel helpless.