nice nice day~ long long post/

i must say today was a very eventful day. first there was this graduation ceremony in the hall where all the awardees go on stage to receive their certs. i admit i'm a'lil envious of them for i'm not seating among them, but i seriously doubt the credibility of how some of the recipients get enlisted. maybe i was just too jealous hur? *sour-grape-me

but i loved the speeches. had thought they would be damn boring but they made me think alot. sometimes i wonder if i had bothered to take part in school activities more, will i feel as lost as i had felt when i joined ny? those people that thanked the principal so faithfully, were they truly touched by her kind soul or did they just said what they delivered as they felt they had to do so? maybe there are indeed a handful who's lives have been greatly touched by the principal and i'm just being too cynical...

following this there was refreshments which dan and gang chiong like mad and took alot. after that there was ct, where AT had his last chance to speak to us as a class. it wasnt much but i think he has a knack for saying alot with few words. kinda think i might just miss this tr years down the road...

well, school sort of ended here. the rest of the class went back pretty soon. luckily i met yuhui outside staffroom or i would have became another lost wandering soul and get stucked at home without the mood to study. then came along xueyi and we decided to go catch a MOVIE~ its a rare occasion to get to hang out with yuhui ya know. and its something i havent done in a long while now. we had haagen daaz choc single scoop. it was superb. i havent felt so pampered for so long... yum yumm~

with this hand i lift your sorrows
your cup will never be empty, for i will be your wine
with this candle, i will light your way into darkness
with this ring, i ask you to be mine

before i even left school compound though, something kinda cropped up. so i ran some of the way to the busstop and accompanied him on the bus ride home in an attempt to cheer him up. i am so glad i did it. if not god-knows-what might have happened when a person who does not have sufficient sleep is feeling upset and left alone... hope i left him smiling!

phone kinda died along the way and i committed something kinda stupid. assumptions just seem to cause alot of troubles between people huh? i'm just glad the days over.

You can buy your hair if it won't grow
You can fix your nose if he says so
You can buy all the make up
That man can make
But if you can't look inside you
Find out who am I too
Be in the position to make me feel
So damn unpretty
I'll make you feel unpretty too

unpretty by TLC

a song i cant get out of my head recently. its a pretty old song i think, but nice. sometimes i ponder what am i doing and where am i heading in life. then i start to get really confused as there are things i would like to do yet lack the courage and confidence to do so, and there are other matters that i am told needs to be done yet i dont have the enthusiasm to do them. i'm lost yet not lost amidst the rush to get good grades.. of which i think its importance have been overrated.

then i wonder what had i been doing the past 2 years? it seems almost like ytd when i was staying back in that familiar 4E1 classroom just talking, and classmates start to tear. nope i didnt feel that same melancholy today. it felt kind of different. i didnt have as much to reminisce on due to my limited participation in school activities. i regret letting my initial reservations about the school keep me distant from the school for so long, so much so that i cant recount ever coming for any of the school's competition, events or celebrations.

(btw its 2:13am__) i'm feeling unpretty also due to another reason, that is i've committed several grave mistakes that have hurt people around me. had to mention mel for i've wrongly accused her of something she didnt do intentionally. i'm really sorry. been intending to bring this up for some time but it always didnt seem right. there are a few more cases which i shall not bring up.. for fear of bringing back memories others dont want to be reminded of.

during this journey there were lots of ups and downs. i habitually over-focused on the bad times rather than the good times. the final decision shall be to post only nice happy post. even if something bad has happened, i'll only post about it when it's solved. why brood over them online when i've got friends to talk about them with?

nice wonderful people who have been willing to listen to me whine and complain: (with no regards to ranking) ivan mel kelda hui shuxuan xueyi chunying jieying mengchoo yuhui trisha..