ooolala~

been shallow these few days. just wanted so much to lie down somewhere and slack till my body rot. but it is not the right time to do that yet. i still have things that need to be done, things i need to strive for. yes i will achieve it. all of us... we will get there.

it appears for many things a balance is required. family and friends, work and play, blah blah blah... sometimes i chide myself for not knowing how to do so. the lack of balance in my life makes everything in it topsy-turvy. there was no discipline in the first place to maintain the equilibrium. when things happen i do not counter act in any way to resist the changes in my system. Le Chatelier must have never known of people like me when he invented his principle.

i get carried away too easily. i give in to temptations naturally. not questioning of the consequences of my actions. as long as instant gratification is provided i take it despite of the possible negative impacts my actions may have. i just dont bother. it is strenous to weigh the everything before doing it. like the opportunity cost to come online now is the time that could be spent on studying something more useful. then no one will see me coming online ever again.

the maid was good. the company was better. everything was good.