sleep deprive retard

argh~ am so sleep deprived!!! finally managed to study finish for the 2 quizzes today le! heh... was so piss off yesterday at myself because i keep falling asleep while studying. then is really not enough time to study that kind already. missed adrian's bdae ponding ceremony when i wake up to study but end up fell asleep instead and slept for very long some more. grrr~ end up i think i shouted "f*ck" and woke up scaring jiejie and mel. went to wash my face and came back 心情不好... ooopZ~
now can go and sleep le... yay~

i'm not so young

today went for lunch tt time mummy's friend walked past. she came around to say hello. then she realised she never see me before...

auntie: eh... you're daughter ah? (pointing at me) this one i got see before (looks at my sister)
mummy: yar lor, this is the smaller one
auntie: oh... she sec what?
mummy: no lar, she in university already

i almost died... just crouch my head in between my shoulders and concentrate on my prawn mee... stupid auntie....

heavenly chocolate biscuits

mummy bought chocolate biscuits from girl guides help them raise funds... she say see them very poor thing stand there sell business very poor. but the biscuits were good, though 10 bucks for a tin quite ex ba~ and the best part was she put it on my table!!! not on ahting or ahming but mine. tralalala~

honest

act blur
don't act blur
simple things should just remain simple
why complicate things
be truthful to yourself
tell the truth
things will remain simple
when you try to manipulate the truth
things can get out of hand

rumors should stay as rumor
speculation is never good
some victims never got their names cleared
imagine yourself in the victims' shoes
before you spread rumor abt them
then consider if you should do so
spare a thought for other's feelings

27th october is okay...

today was my free day~~~! meaning no school = no need wake up early~~~! but then ah mel got lesson at 0830 so she woke up quite early then i also body clock then semi wake up awhile. during the semi consciousness she told me our room power shortage ask me wake up try to call and ask people to come and fix. then she left and i continued sleeping. (^(00)^)
unfortunately i woke up at around 9plus 10 like that because it got very stuffy and hot under my blanket. i kicked it off in an attempt to continue sleeping but it was impossible to continue sleeping amidst the stuffiness and some sneezing. so i just woke up, took my toothbrush to go wash up. on my way out i thought of trying my luck and turned the lights and fans on. IT WORKED~ tempted as i was to continue sleeping i know i had to study. bleah~
did tutorial and studied... then because i brought it up, we ended up got play squash today, if not originally no one booked the courts one. heehee got sth to look forward to study harder... ended up rain for awhile just before mel go for lesson again (1hr before squash). one good advice: don't play squash barefooted... i ended up with blisters... but it was good la. but i think is because i sit there in the wind awhile Ms. Flu come and find me liao...
then after that we went jp for dinner. chiong to post office first lucky haven't close yet. then we ate at banquet. man i must complain sia... everything was so expensive... hokkien mee was $4.30 walao... add 70cents more i can get another plate outside can. i so xin tong. so end up eat beef yi mian. haha same price but more special ma. not bad.
then i was thirsty so i craved for bubble tea. volunteered to buy for everyone. but when i went to the shop. man it took me so long to finally get my order to her... and i never even got to have my drink right. she added yoghurt. argh~ end up rush to take train also never finish throw away my own money.
runny nose.... nose runny....
runny nose running.... running nose runny....
can't breath....

wake up smile

went to sleep last night hugging my favourite yellow cushion so tightly. then the next thing i know i woke up to a surprise sound this morning... my message ringtone. 1 msg received all the way from london. ^______^ at first alarm ring i also refuse to wake up, but when i saw the message i willingly woke up and replied. nicey nice nice~ i love my stupid dear~today MSE Club was giving out exam goodie bag. hahaha i was so damn excited to go and collect it but i forgot the date and location. i was so lucky, they were giving it out today just outside one of my lecture theatre for today. wahahaha~ got a singtel A4 notebook inside that is very nice... then got choc milk and sweet potato chip. oh yah got a free clear folder also. and the carrier was nice. the rest of the pamphlets inside ended up in the rubbish bin. i love goodie bags~~~!

today is so my day. got to video call too... i'm loving today... but seeing him makes the heart yearn for more =X

Thich Nhat Hanh - Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.

抱枕无忧？

原本要回宿舍，但是谁知道下了这么大的雨，结果又是要等雨停才能出发，有时在电脑面前浪费时间。玩到没有东西玩的时候就自己胡思乱想，想着远方的他是否也想念着我。昨晚做了个梦，梦里看见他和以为很漂亮的异性手牵着手高兴极了。怕梦会成为事实，却想相信他。但是他如果真地找到更适合自己的人，我会尽自己的制自祝福他。祈祷着这情节不会发生。。。

想着抱不到的他，手中抱着的只有他送的抱枕。。。

sigh

why is it that when i try to talk nicely there is simply no similar response from him?

in memory of goong...

1st video's song - parrot lyrics

i miss you again, just like it was yesterday
my desire to see you just won't disappear
you just keep appearing in my mind
the more i comfort myself, the more i cry
even if i rub away those tears secretly
the memories are spreading to other memories
making me cry with a painful heart

i regret that i've only received
will you forget me because i haven't given you anything

i love you.. i... i love you
this is what i learned from you
out of all the words and phrases in the world
this has become my favourite phrase
i mutter it to myself, as if i were stupid

i'm really sorry... i'm really sorry...
i'm sorry for these words that are too late
i wait for you with no shame
will you return tomorrow by chance

i love you.. i... i love you
this is what i learned from you
out of all the words and phrases in the world
this has become my favourite phrase
i mutter it to myself, as if i were stupid

i'm really sorry... i'm really sorry...
i'm sorry for these words that are too late
i wait for you with no shame
will you return tomorrow by chance



after that the 2nd prince found her before crown prince... and he grabbed her go forest and hug her... if only he can be here with me...

another video with song one...

gibberish retard

i can only feel sadness. time zone and time table if they become a factor anything else can too. email is strictly the only form of contact. i anticipate reading his email, yet i'm always depressed at its content. i try to put in effort to reply and make the situation better but it only got worse.

am i too naive...?

退后 - 周杰伦

天空灰的想哭过
离开你以后并没有更自由
酸酸的空气 嗅出我们的距离
一幕锥心的结局 像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
榨干了回忆 那笑容是夏季
你我的过去被顺时针的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
粗心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给了承诺
却给时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情 回忆里待续

the clock strikes 12

mimima~ mimima~ mimima~ mimima~

haha mommy woke me up early in the morning to go find sinseh... the way she woke me up is so inhumane... )= she poke my swollen ankle then i ouch and jump awake... cannot sleep in today liao... then reach there that time the queue also damn long sia. ended up waited for 2+ hours before my trotter got attended to. got one auntie behind me jump queue then i abit buay song but dun dare say too much. then came a young malaysian couple with 2 noisy kids nvm, but the mother also very bitchy keep talking bad to the wife of the sinseh who is a bit eccentric. hai.. find her so mean. but the rest of the people sitting out there also bitch and laugh at the wife wif her. will have karma one orh.. these type of things better dun do too much.

argh~ stomach hungry liao! tee hee hee at home can grow fat... actually grow fat fat no one want also good hor then can concentrate more on studying. no need to get so troubled with other stuffs. heeheehee best to be left alone can do whatever i want.

princess joke

sprained my ankle yesterday morning
when u dun see sth it doesn't mean anything to u
is that applicable to everyone?

why is it that when u can't have sth u yearn for it more?
felt like a wasted today and just slept away the whole day
woke up at 3pm to eat and then went back to sleep again until 9pm
dinner also drink a bit of plain porridge no appetite
fact proven doesn't show much but it hurts a lot

it's his birthday today and i haven't wish him yet
i do not know which tone i should use to sound normal
all i could muster was a "enjoy urself" when he msged
that was so lousy and corny coming from a girlfriend on ur special day
no wonder he was in a rush to end the conversation
guess i can only blame myself for that

suddenly i wish very much to be treated as a princess for a day
at least then i will feel like i mattered to people...
no matter what everyone will pamper you
i bet when a princess sprains her ankle
everyone will flock over to show their concern
especially her lover

after this everything will be alright again
including me, i shall be stronger
there are more unfortunate people out there
no more mourning like as if i'm the only one

BAH~~~~~~~~~~~ PUI~~~~~~~~~~~
~~ begone ~~ begone ~~

another day

after a long period of quarreling finally 雨过天晴 already...

yesterday met shuxuan for lunch... then goodness 臭努人 saw me in the lib come see i unaware come and scare. hahaha and she says she only rems her own smelliness when i ask her to 给我记住.

feeling slightly feverish now... but hope it will get better. wonder what it's like at home already. sth is wrong with daddy... =(

got another person bdae this week... another hole in my pocket liao. this sun got a very important person birthday also, too bad the distance is too far to be there for him personally. maybe i might get sth later and try sth agn. hope it works this time round. it kinda sucks if u keep getting ur stuff lost in the mail.

innovationation exhibition 2006

recommendation by chup then i also nth better to do so i went to check out the innovationation exhibition at expo. heh met mel at tampines late for 10 mins. then we take 31 go expo only to be told later that need to walk freaking far. gosh~

i never go and rem the hall of the exhibition so we lost our way and walked from hall 3 to the 7-eleven there then approached the SOS salesgirl for help before walking back to hall 3 further down abit. =S we were all carrying our book in book out luggage...

got to see alot of tech things... from old to now. then the old telephones really damn cock. haha and i saw old old mac monitors. one of it got the d drive below the screen. then i was saying if u eject ur disc, it will look like the mac sticking out its tongue. hehehehe...

saw alot of cool stuffs that mostly make use of motion sensors. got one when ur leg go there the words on the floor will move. then got a game to push the projected image balls into designated holes jus by sensing the motion of ur hand. then got program that can detect ur emotion when u speak into the mic. oh and the coolest thing was like minority report like tt. ur hand not touching anything then u jus move it in the sensor region and the screen projection will show u something moving with ur hand. and got a fuel powered handphone by NEC that looks very futuristic. cool man. i wonder what the future tech will be like.

hmmm den aft tt we went to eat malan lamian. i nv order food jus the barley only. sch sell 30 cents they sell $1.50. i almost died looking at the price. but i had a great time eating the ice. since i paid for it must finish everything including the ice. tt's me with 3 ice cubes in my mouth, which turned numb for awhile afterwards.

my first blood donation

i went for my first ever blood donation on friday at NTU student activities centre (SAC) with mel and ben. the queue was kinda long when we reached there. and i was on an empty stomach... so with my stomach growling i registered for the blood donation.

stage 1: filled out their forms and then they gave this sticker! ah mel lai ang cannot donate. at first she wants to bluff her way through see can a not but i let the cat out of the bag so she stage 1 cannot clear liao. =X my bad...
stage 2: after that there was another queue before the counter where the assistants record our particulars into their system. so we waited here for some time... then finally when i thought it will be my turn the person let a pre-registered person to go before me. because they register earlier so can jump queue. bleah~

stage 3: queue up again to wait for the medical officer to check our blood pressure and body temperature. my bp was 115/72 and temp actually reached 37.2. think it was because i got a bit flu ba so temp higher i don't know.

stage 4: another queue yet again this time to test ur blood. so the lady need to take a sample of our blood and drop it into a beaker of copper sulphate. she pricked me (ouch~) with the "thing" then she used a small pipette like sucker to take my blood sample. she kept squeezing my finger to get the blood out for her to suck into the pipette. and she really is squeeze and squeeze. bleah~ then she finish with her sample liao she gave me a ball of cotton to stop the bleeding at my left fourth finger. ask me hold onto it.

stage 5: wait for our turn to draw blood out liao. ah mel can only accompany us until the starting of the queue only. because further in the seats are quite packed she also dun dare to ying4 ying4 sit with us. so she borrow ben tut sit outside and do. diligent girl sia~ anyway while waiting ben say cotton balls look like eyeballs. so we experimented and got the frankenstein below:
but when finally wait until my turn to draw blood. i damn gan jeong. she ask me sit on the ah gong chair then she pass me a soft pumpkin ball and tried to find my vein on my right arm... cannot find. so she move the thing to my left arm... also cannot find.

auntie: girl i cannot find ur vein leh. i think u better dun donate la hor. if u wan go back raise dumbell next yr then come back agn.

i was like sian diao lor.. den as if to make me feel better she say the pumpkin give me free can bring home. hai den i jus pick up my stuff and find ben on another ah gong chair and tell him the news. damn he laughed. den i went out find mel tell her the news. she laughed too. i tell anyone anyone also laughed at me. kns~ but i have the pumpkin on my table now. freaking orange pumpkin~

cappucino = yucks

damn low morale today... regretted drinking the cup of cappucino early in the morn because i ended up with no appetite and feeling nauseous. then when i was resting in between material science and physics tutorial, i heard some people bitch about a pageant nominee which i suspect to be myself. (why? they mentioned hall12) hai`
already not feeling well then tutorial don't understand still have to put up with this kind of things. sucks... so i after that i just become very sullen and bad-tempered during physics tutorial.

HARLEY~~

this is me riding on a real HARLEY DAVIDSON motorbike. no gimmicks, just the real thing! wahahaha cool right. eh... huiqi took this photo for me, but they should be sending me a better quality photo of me on the HARLEY soon ba. look at it, i look so puny on the bike. teeeheeeheee~ ain't that cool. bet u guys never try before leh~!

just now went down after dinner for a publicity thing. decorated the amphitheatre with colorful light bulbs and lanterns for tml's mooncake festival cum exam supper. got free goodie bad so must go. some more i want to take a photo of the beautiful lights. oh man, it was really so nice but i never bring my camera with me when i went there la. so tml night, hopefully the pictures will come in. tonight busy pia study no time to upload photos... ^3^

neighbourhood not safe

last week, i forgot to mention sth very scary because i was too excited abt my new k800i... i just bought my new hp from a nearby store and was walking back to my block to get sth from my mum. goodness i heard sth like an egg drop on the ground somewhere quite near to me, the splatter and stuff. i thought i was nothing so i continued walking. then another egg dropped again and it's like as if someone is doing it on purpose. so i looked around but cannot see is who throw... then got an auntie stay in my block walking back also. she saw the egg dropping. then she said she was walking from the block behind when someone throw a knife from upstairs down. omfg~ and its a small knife which landed very near to a red car.
like this next time walk past there have to be very careful liao... that time got hall fren tell me his block also got siao ting tong take knife chase after a school girl. then the police shot twice in attempt to stop him. kaoZ~ then yesterday mummy told me ah fang auntie got a fren who's block got police come catch siao ting tong also, but different block.
zzzzzzz i'm praying damn hard it's not because of the proximity of my house to the hougang chalet. because so far i still haven see any police in my block other then that time got ah pek always pee in the lift. gosh~ that was an awful period to go through. everyday the lift also got a big puddle of urine. though now still have but not as often liao.

p/s: yesterday i saw got handphone roadshow at compasspoint. jesus christ. my phone is cheaper by 150 bucks if is 21 mths upgrade with singtel. i starhub so maybe can save 50 bucks. wah lao... see already is really damn dui la~ then ahtingJIE keep reminding me about the phone i lost and the V3 i trade in not worth the price also... of which both she also paid for. bah~~~~!

<< 导盲犬小Q >>

yesterday i saw this dog at the kopitiam... its owner (an uncle) was ordering packet chicken rice, while it sat at the border of the inside of the coffeeshop very quietly looking at its owner. it did not budge at all unless someone walk past and he felt like he was in their way then he will shift himself a little so that he will not be blocking the passage way.
the most interesting part was when its owner suddenly moved out of its sight blocked by another chicken rice stall customer. the dog really got frantic. it got up look left and right and keep turning around to see where is its owner. the scene was really cute... and it was about to walk away to search for its owner when suddenly the uncle emerge from the crowd. so the dog having found uncle resume to sitting down quietly to wait for him again.
when the uncle came out of the stall, it was so excited to be able to move off, so it lifted one fore leg and bend it to ask which direction they are moving to. oh man the dog was so damn cute. too bad i never bring my camera phone down then... if not could have taken a video. makes me wan to watch ah mel (borrowed from Jo) Quill even more now. << 导盲犬小Q >> here i come~!

blood donation drive / singapore chinese orchestra / korean thingy / random stuffs

blood donation drive

Next week there is a blood donation drive at school. we were discussing about it when Cindy suddenly say i don't have above 45kg cannot donate blood. heeheehee and there i was so happy telling them i am above 45. then i came home today and weighed myself... i lost a few kilograms... hope i can still donate blood. last time always no one want to accompany me go donate blood together. this year manage to find kaki already can go liao~!

Forgot what's my blood type liao, but ah mel say O- very rare. i thought i was O- initially but now i'm not sure. last last yr went to check before but i forgot liao. STM (short term memory)... i just pray that i can donate la... so eager to try it man. oh ya! haha Pam actually tried to donate before then her blood stopped flowing halfway through the session. lol and the doctors/nurses present all panick. bleurgh~ the half packet of Pam's blood got thrown away in the end. they should have just let her infuse it back even better right... so wasted!

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singapore chinese orchestra

today SCO came to ntu auditorium to perform... i was very interested because of shuxuan's influence, so i went down to watch and it so happened that huiqi was also an ex-CO member. she was quite glad to accompany down so we went and sat there to watch. due to some other reasons, mel decided to come along too with benny, liyan and nicole. lol then the 2 of us reached there quite early and had to chop seats for mel's gang whom came late as they were having lunch before that. we were like drop dead embarrassed as people came in and keep asking if there was anyone sitting on the seats we were chopping. haha so i had to call mel and kind of pressed her to reach faster. whooops~!

anyways the performance was really very professional. as compared to that time our guitar syf, i feel like a big fool, embarrassing myself in front of the judges. their volume control was damn good. the auditorium was so huge and they did not render help from any microphones at all to project their music. gosh it was an eye-opener really. made me itching to pick up piano again. and that reminds me how poor i would be if i were to take up piano lessons... oh no~~~~

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korean thingy

oh man! that day some friend of a friend mentioned that koreans start going for facial at the age of 13, inclusive of both boys and girls, because it is part of their custom. sia la... no wonder u see all their complexion so flawless maciam tofu like that. so jealous... recently i got a lot of pimples popping on my face to remind me i'm still in my youth. then i also starting to watch this korean show dunno what gong what one la... but the story is about a prince got betrothed to his enemy classmate. then in the end they fell in love that kind of stuff and the political matters in their palace. hmmm... prince charming wor. a real prince. but not handsome. only complexion damn good nia.

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random stuffs

today is mid-autumn festival. previous years usually i would be out playing with candles on this special night. but tonight the air ain't that good because of the haze and there is no one to accompany me to play candles le. last year that one already flew to london liao... so sian. i was thinking about bringing sparklers to play at hall. hmmm...? will people laugh at us childish? anyways the haze is damn bad. i can't even make out very well the building opposite my block from my corridor. and it is only one small road across not too far. damn and when i tried to take pictures using my camera phone it turned out very bad also. (no cable at home... to upload pitures when i return to hall. use handphone blog scarli turn out to cost a lot...) it is really jialat loh. i take can only see the fog sia. so happening. oh and i can't find the moon just now when i was determining how bad the haze was.

btw ivan is cooking rice now and he anyhow added a random amount of water to cook the rice. also he is chopping (not cutting) carrots and shaving (not peeling) potatoes... to me it sounds like he is chopping someone else's fingers and shaving their hair. i bet the rice will turn out burnt too. i'm feeling worried for his housemates' stomachs tonight... goodness gracious~!

- the end -

Hoooooray!!! wahahahaha my lab report finally completed and submitted nicely le. ended it nicely with a - The End - at the bottom of the last page. kekeke happy thing is it is done. but sads thing is my lab group people like all also very kiasu all do until like nicer than mine. then some more got print color with school logo at the front. haix~ i still thought come uni can slack le... in the end like still being pressurised by muggers around. especially the guy who looks like jay zhou, he super kiasu and mug can... wonder if my honours will come to me soon... hmmm? maybe i have to fight harder liao. cannot so slack le.
got someone always never do homework orh. somemore got 2 weeks never submit lab report le. cannot be influenced by her. instead i should be more hardworking go influence her. hehehehe

Study + Mug

Studying until very sian... Some things happened... Low morale... No mood... May tend to say things that hurt at this kind of moment... But i can't concentrate very well on my work also... Sucks... Really very sian...

jcrc investiture

just now went down after dinner to attend the jcrc investiture. eh how to say leh, the thing had some cock-up along the way but i thought there was good effort put into it especially since it is the 6th jcrc first event. it made me learn how to appreciate the past school events that i have been to where there was really minimal problem along the way.
sat there and stone for awhile until my butt also pain... and it made me think about hall friends... i'm still not used to it. where u come here and make friends that won't really last long. maybe people u might keep in contact with but not really those true friends. i dunno whether u understand what i mean. nvm... must jiayou in the sub com from now on le ba. cannot be so slack! hai~ gambatte ikimasiou

time to pia

die suddenly i feel like i'm damn slack... missed so many lectures and those few tutorials. hope i will be able to catch up soon... trying hard to finish my lab report by this friday. i never knew it would be so hard to do a lab report using microsoft word. bet if i use handwritten it would be done faster but it won't be as neat. humph~ must burn more oil and talk lesser rubbish already.

i'm not posting overseas agn/

fuck. damn sian... last week recess went to weave those pen stuff to give ivan. then still rush down to jurong point singpost to check if can mail it down and purchase stamp and all that. hell in the end the pen also never reach him. damn sian now... fuck. waste my efforts. what the hell... i'm not posting anything else overseas again. curse the fellow who rip my envelope apart. may his hands rot so bad...

belated happy children's day~

i forgot about children's day yesterday... =( and i bet all the children are enjoying their break from school today. lucky i stay hall if not i will be in the midst of the absence of children in school today.

new handphone, new worries

i am finally back in hall... grr just now kena pang seh -_-" but turn out ok la... i also managed to post my first blog post with my handphone. muahahaha cool eh~ but then i come back hall got alot of problems trying to synchronise my handphone with my laptop. kinda sucks. hopefully i try tml it will work la. happy go lucky de ma... haha like as if the thing will work by its own tml. =\ maybe tml den see how loh...
now need to charge phone for 8 hours very sian. damn excited can't wait to get my hands on it and play man. 3.2 MP camera, 3G function and 100 bucks over budget... so my pocket now got a very huge hole in it. time to watch my expenditures again.

hmmm....

is it not weird how people these days seem to depend so much on their handphones? i dont remember much people's contact numbers these days other than those few closer friends... and then when i lost my handphone that time, it was almost like the end of the world. i was so scared and stuff... then after some time when i really sat down and think about it, handphone was invented for our convenience to reach out to people, to shrink the space between people. but why is it we depend on it as if it's our life?...
and nowadays people are more willing to spend more on their handset than as compared to maybe 5 years back? so if they lose it, it is equivalent to losing a small fortune and their precious contacts... who knows when they will be able to get back all the old numbers of some long lost friends stored inside the phone. and when u forget to bring your handphone out, it feels like there is a lot of inconvenience so much so that you already cannot live without it. i wonder is this reliance excessive?

Waiting at outram...

Waiting with mel at e mrt station to go to hall. Haha uncle train please come soon :)

getting new handphone loh~!

YAY~ ! i can change handphone loh! muahaha considering between N72, N73 or W810i... just now had to call up starhub hotline to check whether i can upgrade a not. haha above 21 months loh. neh neh almost had a scare when ahtingJIE say only 12 months need pay extra 100 bucks then refuse to let me buy handphone. retard...