talk cock

bloody hell... it's the beginning of yet another ever long weekend staying at home doing nth. it's been long since i last lazed in bed (when i'm not sick) and refuse to get up for awhile too long. and today i thought i might just do so until sicko ahtingJIE woke me up by her usual irritating method... so i blarrdy hell got up very reluctantly and went down for lunch with mummy and ahtingJIE. and then it started to rain. ha~ shouldn't have got up right. how nice it would be to sleep in in this weather. so after lunch i got back i was unable to sleep already... instead i have been playing a marathon of solitaire and spider solitaire until my eyes also a bit cock.

if you were in my shoes, would you go?
standing in between my family aka parents and him.
i do not want to make a choice between him and home
but if i were to do so who would i choose?

if you love a person, will you torture them with the same choice too?

suffering from weird nightmares recently...
how should i decipher them?

anyways... i shall go back to my game now. managed to solve a few rounds of 2 suit spider solitaire plus a few consecutive rounds of solitaire. =) i'm getting better at it. about to go off and read comic le ba. mel borrowed me "一公升的眼泪" which is not a series so it's only this one small book that i brought home. mel say it's a very touching story. so can't wait to get my cock-eyes on it soon.

suddenly i remembered it's about time i go and take my basic theory test soon. hui kel and mel like all taking practical already and i'm still stuck at basic not passed yet. grrrr got to put more effort into things i do ba. somehow it seems these days only half my heart went out to things i do. even eating also don't interest me as much these days.

brooding over sth

went k-box on wed... muahahaha~ and i got pic! (mel and me!)

actually i oso got record one of the nicer vocals during the session but i think i accidentally deleted it already. what a waste~ see maybe my next k-box session then record. (=

hmmm would you rather
hold a stranger in your arms close to you
or be seperated from your love ones by great distance?
either one seems difficult enough to make a choice.

ignorance, is it bliss anymore?
whichever way
there's a weird feeling of confusion within me...

friends or foe
who would you rather hurt
but who DO you usually hurt afterall...

i dunno just woke up with this tied up feeling in my chest so i thought i'd come online and blog something. the hall room quite stuffy now, feeling a bit uncomfortable. hopefully it's not the spirit of fever agn... bless me with the knowledge to finish my physics tutorial. oh please, let me gain enlightenment!!!

purchase check

one good advice to all out there... ALWAYS always check whatever you buy after making purchase and leaving the store. got cheated twice already!!! heh~

today went out for dinner with mel and hui... initial plan was to go Jurong Point makan KFC. but when we reach there the place was so packed with people that we gave up and decided to take away go back hall then eat. so they did the queueing while i go and settle my stuffs first... and we met up at the mrt there to take bus go back hall together.

so we happily happily take bus go back without checking the content of the takeaway plastic bag. all the way back chit chat chit chat also never realise. i kope fries eat oso never notice. until we sit down at the tv lounge and started eating then hui cannot find her fish ole. SIAN 1/2~~~

that time i go jurong point buy shoes oso got the wrong one. then cos i in a hurry i never check properly before leaving in the end have to make the extra trip. hai~ sicko service.

anyone treating?

i suddenly remember a very funny thing... on the very same day ahting insisted that she would like to drink chinese tea adamantly, i said something that is very -_-". the waitress was clearing our plates...

waitress: so would you like to have some desserts?
me: 好啊！你请啊？！

lalalala~ then everyone just smile smile dun dare say anything. cos really very diao~! and then ahdi and ahting just keep saying i very lame... bleah~

i want chinese tea~!

today 一家人 had dinner at Junction 8 fei cui because mummy manage to get a $50 voucher from somewhere. bro and me were both hungry and thankfully we enjoyed prompt service as soon as we arrived at the counter. however..... mummy and ahting took forever to decide what they want to eat ( i bet they took nearly 1/2 hr) and there was the argument (mostly done by ahting) regarding which tea we should be served.

background info:
- chinese tea = pu'er or xiang pian
- ga pou = chrysanthemum tea + pu'er/xiang pian
- pu'er = pu lei

in chinese...

waitress: what drinks would u like to have?
ahting: chinese tea
daddy: ga pou
ahting: i dun wan i wan chinese tea
daddy: ah ok lor up to u..
ahting: i want chinese tea
mummy: why not pu lei
ahting: i dun wan i wan chinese tea
me: i wan pu'er
ahting: i dun wan!!!
mummy: pu lei u got drink one at home got buy
ahting: i dun wan!!! i wan chinese tea!!!
waitress: pu lei is chinese tea...
ahting: i dun wan pu lei!!! i wan chinese tea!!!

-_-" i was very diao there... took every one of us a lot of effort to finally convince her (after we finish arguing abt pu'er (aka pu lei) she still cant hear us telling her it is chinese tea so we changed to) xiang pian is chinese tea. though we had a good time laughing at her "stunt" throughout dinner. =)

知足

为什么人往往要等到失去了才学会珍惜？
拥有的时候时不时会觉得厌烦，
但是没有的时候又那么的想念。。。
下一次见到他我会学会更珍惜吗？
还是过不久又会重蹈覆辙呢？

我非常期待等到你回来的那一天
但是在这段时间内我希望
你会记得我
我也会记得你

暂时距离遥远
闭上眼睛想着你
暂时
足够了

似乎孤单北半球的歌词
想念。。。

hall 12 publicity first banner is up

joined the publicity sub com of hall 12... forgot i mentioned it yet or not. this is the first banner for JCRC investiture we painted and i think it is damn good. honestly got quite fed up with the way it runs past week but it's all over... i'll just try harder. basically the layout, design and shading of this first banner was mostly done up by one of the SADM student in the sub com. he is really good. afterall i joined the com hoping to learn sth and i've learn quite some bit about coloring from him. i just can't shake the sickening feeling when they ask me to propose layout and in the end always choose his ideas... guess i just still have a lot to learn.

sudden realisation

it should be around 5pm there now... thanks for taking the effort to travel 1 hr down just to talk to me online. took me some time to realise and appreciate that. hope the pub event goes well.

one less person who stick up for me...

came here today for the sake of blogging sth. don't really have alot to write about anyway. though i suppose i should mention something about him flying off, i cant find myself able to write much of anything.

he is:

13 hours flight away,
8 hours time difference,
with a whole new city to explore,
a new life to live out,
living in a condo in the heart of london,
and not any nearer to me.

many people don't believe this kind of relationship will work out. well, i have my fair share of fears... his friends said some sad yet meaningful stuff to me.

i'm still trying to adapt to the new spaces of time i have now and deal with the things coming in. the silence of my handphone now can get so deafening sometimes, reminding me of his absence. and nowadays i cling onto my email more than anything else..

now i'm sick. constant headache. just recover slightly from fever. pray nth else comes my way.

the aftermath

what i had hoped to be an eye-opener was somewhat a success in making me know more about how a certain part of our society works. the dinner and dance was wonderful especially how everything ended. both the hall king and queen were from Archilles!!! haha i'm the only one from there without a title =D but i'm cool~

though the fact that i got Shine's new face really turns me off. deep down inside me i know that they chose me because yayun rejected them. and the most ironic thing was i was the clown during practice cat-walking like a penguin and they even said that i am not what they were looking for.

so how did i turned out to be their new face? hmmm~ that's for you to ponder already.

oh and i got to know that a hall senior actually commented that i joined the hall pageant and then regretted so it was like i only put 1 leg in that sort of thing. when i heard it i got really upset. i mean really REALLY upset. first i dont even know him and second i hadnt thought me regretting was much of a problem for anyone since i didnt let on much.

after some quiet thoughts i realised that i had been a troublemaker. i did regret very much joining this pageant thing but i also tried my best to cover it up so that it wont affect our trainings much. maybe i just wasnt that great at covering things up and i showed my fox's tail... refusing to dye hair, unable to let loose myself to dance and perform.

anyway things work very differently in the world i got myself submerged into the past few weeks and the one i originally believed i live in. now i live in confusion unwilling to step into reality yet unable to ignore it and continue staying in my make believe.

shagg

i've got alot of things going through my head these days. and i've also got alot of lectures and tutorials to catch up on. so i cant say much but i miss the good old days where everything was simple and nice. ignorant days, but why not.