the aftermath

what i had hoped to be an eye-opener was somewhat a success in making me know more about how a certain part of our society works. the dinner and dance was wonderful especially how everything ended. both the hall king and queen were from Archilles!!! haha i'm the only one from there without a title =D but i'm cool~

though the fact that i got Shine's new face really turns me off. deep down inside me i know that they chose me because yayun rejected them. and the most ironic thing was i was the clown during practice cat-walking like a penguin and they even said that i am not what they were looking for.

so how did i turned out to be their new face? hmmm~ that's for you to ponder already.

oh and i got to know that a hall senior actually commented that i joined the hall pageant and then regretted so it was like i only put 1 leg in that sort of thing. when i heard it i got really upset. i mean really REALLY upset. first i dont even know him and second i hadnt thought me regretting was much of a problem for anyone since i didnt let on much.

after some quiet thoughts i realised that i had been a troublemaker. i did regret very much joining this pageant thing but i also tried my best to cover it up so that it wont affect our trainings much. maybe i just wasnt that great at covering things up and i showed my fox's tail... refusing to dye hair, unable to let loose myself to dance and perform.

anyway things work very differently in the world i got myself submerged into the past few weeks and the one i originally believed i live in. now i live in confusion unwilling to step into reality yet unable to ignore it and continue staying in my make believe.