i'm kinda lonely

i need to grow stronger and learn to be more independent... in a few days time, the person that used accompany me for so much of my time will be gone and i will be left here alone with too much free time to myself.

i feel like a clown for every single session of the pageant catwalk training. and now we have to learn a dance. it's like teaching a wooden block how to shake. ~argh i just hope i'm not creating trouble for the organizers because they have to like put in more effort to teach me everything. =X

but the makeover and photo shoot last saturday was fun. maybe people are right... i shouldn't have joined in the first place... shaking butts and clubbing all that is so not me... =(

if got people read this anyone want to go rave this saturday to support me?