i can bite

i felt very lost when i first came to ntu. i thought the feeling will go away soon but up till now i'm still feeling the same... my tutorial class still no friend. lectures i only know seraphine who is in 2 same lectures as me. then the rest i just go alone leave alone walk around school alone. i used to crap alot. now there is no one for me to crap with. its like no one appreciate the art of crapping here. i feel lonely. i feel sad for myself.

and the pageant thing is not getting anywhere. i mean it is fun la when trying on clothes and got sponsors for alot of things. but i just feel like i dont belong. i dont drink and club. but they do and like to do so. and alot of things got clubbing theme which is god-knows-what to me. everyday i come back after 1 worn out with the urge to throw everything i see out of the window.

nvm. i'm so used to the feeling of not fitting in. anyway it was my idea to join this thing. eye-opener.

well. today i bought 2 pairs of shoes total $70. and the stupid person give me the wrong pair of heels which i need more than the neckermann one for the catwalk thing. damn. i feel so darn broke.

another early day tml.