Saturday, July 29, 2006

my hostel room


(left: view from door; right: view from window)

(left: the bed; right: the corridor)

(the shoerac

(the wardrobe)

honestly, i think the room kinda look like a jail room. firstly because it is a tinge bit too cramp. second there is only 1 window in the room. chicken backside mcnugget... dunno leh i just don't like the feeling when i'm inside, it feels somewhat very restrictive.

but i really hope hostel life is not going to suck too bad. the seniors were lame when we went there. and i bhb-ly allowed one of them to help carry mel's bag when he offered. lol~ simple price to pay to cheat us 40 bucks each to go to their freshmen orientation camp (FOC) right?!?! someone: "of course!" hehe so in short i am clever to let him carry the bag ;) in fact, so very clever. hur hur~

tired liao... post another day soon i hope.

Friday, July 28, 2006

totally BALLOON-EY


today i received a present. yes! a balloon!!! and a bunny one too! i can't believe my eyes when i saw it but wow~ and i so love it. man i'm gonna cry my eyes out when it goes flat.

me parading with the bunny balloon!!! i'm a darn proud balloon owner aka balloowner~ whahahahahahahahaha

my brother totally adores the balloon. SEE~ he's idolising it...

Thursday, July 27, 2006

can you read THE crystal ball?

i have always felt that it takes a psychic to read me. i know i am one hard person to fathom and i can't blame everyone else for not being able to read my mind for they are not psychic. however sometimes i can't help but lose to the frustrations when i'm unable to communicate yet another dysfunctional emotion i get.

ah... bah bah bah bah bah...

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

loopholes and reflections

i had a very long and funny dream last night... it was full of loopholes as to why it is so and yet many points for me to reflect on my own character recently.

i was on a bus with a bunch of people and boxes of fishes which we were on our way to put back into the ocean. the sequence of events that followed are the most ridiculous that i had ever dreamt of...

the whole trip was still uneventful until when one of the guy suddenly slipped into one of the big boxes of fish while trying to be funny. all of the fishes inside started attacking this one hell of a stupid guy biting and tearing his leg apart. he got pulled under the water by the swarm of fish and drowned.

then while the in-charge was trying to calm people down, one of us noted out that a girl was missing. so people start to get nervous and worried about themselves not the girl and there was commotion throughout the bus. at this time, the guy next to me showed me his video cam that he just retrieved from somewhere. it was playing a video of the girl that was missing being forced underwater by a pair of hands. the face of the evil-doer was not captured in the film.

the girl being drowned then was making some signs at the blinking red light of the camera when she realised it was there. with those clues she left me and the guy managed to figure out who was her murderer. as soon as we figured that out, the guy packed his stuffs back into his backpack and threw it out of the bus window, after which he jumped out of it too. right then they found the girl dead in one of the boxes with transparent side.

now, the in-charge has already lost control of the situation. and i had this fleeting thought that if i want to live i would have to follow in the path of that guy who left. so i too got my bag and threw it out of the window. just when i was about to hurl myself out of the window, the one that we figured out to be the murderer out of the blue held onto my ankle and pulled me back into the bus.

it was only after much effort that i managed to successfully jump out of that damn bus window and land on the road unscathed. but the problem now was we had already reached a somewhat secluded road with little, almost no, traffic yet it was crowded with people and the roadside was littered with alot of used handphones. i had to run back and look for my bag which i had thrown out a long distance earlier.

so i ran like a mad woman weaving through the crowd to reclaim my bag, sole purpose to get back my handphone and call for help. but i ran once through the length of the road unable to locate it. at this moment i ran into the guy before. i had to ask for his help, but he appears not to know me. thinking he had already lost his mind, i gave up on him and continued looking.

then i saw joanne and mel, people i know, obviously i can seek their help. joanne then was holding onto her phone so i asked if she could call my handphone so that i can find it. she willingly obliged and i miraculously found my handphone, and a distance away was my bag unharmed.

and then joanne's phone rang and it was the manager of the whole trip. he was looking for me and would like to know if i'm with her. (what the hell how could he have known her no.?!?!) so instinctively i furiously shook my head and shake my hand indicating don't tell him i'm with her. (what's wrong with this trip man...the whole thing is so fucked up. what did the manager want?) at first she was still mouthing "but he has her number and will keep calling to harress her". i was thinking of fleeing the scene too, but in the end she ended the conversation with the manager insisting she don't know where am i.

finally i can heave a sigh of relief and we all head towards the nearest McDonald's. i was unaware that they were with a company of people including several philippinos in the buddhist nuns' robe all the way until we reached the fast food restaurant and sat down, when i found out that all the seats were occupied at their table and i was the only one left seat-less. (alright, why me again?!?!)

and then i woke up feeling damn relieved.

Afterthought:
  • i wonder is there a reason why it is joanne i met and she hesitating for that moment whether to help me or not.
  • why i never thought of calling someone for help with my handphone like ivan or my family to let them know about my situation?
  • ok the murderer was someone i know and don't really like is that the reason she was trying to kill me too? why am i afraid of her?
  • the philippino nuns why were they there? it's so weird.
  • and of all things why should i dream of myself without a seat in McDonald's eating with my friends? (though i do always worry about feeling left out by my friends..)
  • of all the things that could kill man why fish?!?!
  • why i'm so stupid to board the bus when i don't even know it's destination [-___-]"

Sunday, July 23, 2006

i am so lucky

today my boyfriend cooked dinner for me to eat... and unlike other days, i feel like the most fortunate girl on earth~

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

time to get out?

time to look up all my friends since i finally have time of my own... and maybe pick up one or two more skills. i wonder how all the rest are doing out there. no more about myself only... catching up can be tedious when u have forgotten to keep in contact for a long time. but i really do wish to cherish the people i have come to known during this life...

time to pick myself up and go on ... ...

Sunday, July 16, 2006

puzzles

i feel like a puzzle refusing to let people around me solve. i try to look strong, unfathomable. i build a facade around me now. i refuse to let on what is going on inside my mind. i don't let people understand me. i can't let you in. for you will see how vulnerable i really am inside . and i don't want that to happen. for i am an artichoke. we artichokes were made to be this way. so i will smile to everything that comes my way. even if it is tearing me up inside.

think i might abandon this blog again soon. but who knows when i'll be back again...

Thursday, July 13, 2006

bah bah bah bah bah

imagine u say u care abt someone then when she says she's not feeling well all u do is play game? lol

Monday, July 10, 2006

恶魔在身边



everytime after i watch this kind of taiwan 偶像剧 i will feel very weird... because the people inside always manage to find someone who they love and love them back and they love each other that kind of thing. but when i look at real life it seems that the guys are never as nice, gentle and understanding as they depict them in the dramas... even though i thought i am stronger than before but i still cried until like nobody's business during the part when the male lead going to leave the girl and go paris. the situations just seem so similar.

Sunday, July 09, 2006

恶魔在身边