friends / lovers / foes ?

last night got diarrhea... or did i mention that already? wonder is it kena infected by someone by the name of chup but after eating the 宝记丸 my mother ask me to take i felt much better. although occasionally the stomach will start grumbling and threaten to release another wave of laosai... >.<

(diarrhea) chup send me these 2 songs: 靠岸 and 花恋蝶 sian diao... all sad sad one...

last night i was tossing and turning on my bed unable to go to sleep. all of a sudden my handphone started to vibrate. (well it is in silent mode for a reason... i was expecting a flood in the morning which never come... a little disappointed but nevermind... back to the main topic...) so i slowly took out the device from under my pillow and brought it in front of my face. 1 new sms. it's from my beloved xueyi~ lol a terrific surprise indeed.

and after i had replied, i put the phone back to where it belongs and continued tossing and turning. damn these days i just can't seem to fall asleep properly at all. there are just some things that keep going on in my mind. "BUGGER OFF," i told them but they still come back and haunt me every night.

we say we don't understand each other enough. maybe that's it. maybe that's not it. what if it's just us not wanting to understand each other? what if we're just ignoring a very simple fact that has been glaring at us in the eye for very very long? what if everything that i thought i know of him is but a lie he wanted me to know instead? what if... what if... what if...?

random thought:
are friends and lover equable? if they are, why do we not celebrate the day we get to know our friends like we commemorate anniversaries for lovers? we have valentines' day and friendship day, and we celebrate birthdays friends and couples alike. so why do we not have anniversaries for friends?

just pissed... amen...

you know what you know what you know what?!?!?! i waited for so many days for that phone call and then it just has to end like that (as always) . sometimes i just don't know why am i so stupid. pine and wait and pine and wait for him to call and msg. in the end what i get? nothing i tell you. N-O-T-H-I-N-G!! sometimes i doubt if he even loves me. but i knew better than to ask out loud. no, i keep these inside.

after 1 week plus finally got a job. he also never feel happy for me. just think that he rarely got weekday off then i must spend time with him. what about the time i waste pining for him because i have nothing better to do? might as well make it useful right. what about when i specially take time off or even leaves to accompany him for scholarships interviews.. then now i ask him if can accompany me to my first day at work. what did i get? a straight NO. WASTE HIS TIME. to him i am but a worthless freak. how all these make my heart feel. well i don't really know how to put them into words. but it really truly horribly sucks.

i know he is not like every other guy. but why the over excessive PRIDE and EGO?

super bo liao

interesting..jus happen to see xueyi's blog. then i saw the tagboard. -_-" honestly i cant believe there are people so bo liao...

whenever ivan is in field camp, my handphone just goes dumb. it is kind of sad for me. the silence just serves as a reminder to me how i have not kept in contact with my friends as much as i should.

i am so super bored and sick of doing household chores... actually can come update blog one. but stay home a few more days then i realised at home nth much happen also nothing much to blog about. -_-" unless you want i can tell you how i keep clothes, fold and iron them.

How mundane. cannot find back the me that has a goal to work towards to already.

Where do u find love

Wang, you find love in a Fairy Tale

Glass slippers, traveling minstrels, knights in shining armor. These are some of the classic components of fairy tales. And when it comes to your real-life love life, you'll take 'em in the form of candy and flowers, poems describing your beauty, tiny velvet boxes, and the like. Whether you are single or settled, you're a firm believer that the fairy tale shouldn't end when someone is carried over the threshold (though that's a pretty fun part, too).You sometimes have to work to get your head out of the clouds, but your optimistic spirit and love-conquers-all attitude helps you deal with the good and bad that life might throw your way. As long as you can spot a poison apple when it knocks on your door, you'll always be able to find your happy ending.