just pissed... amen...

you know what you know what you know what?!?!?! i waited for so many days for that phone call and then it just has to end like that (as always) . sometimes i just don't know why am i so stupid. pine and wait and pine and wait for him to call and msg. in the end what i get? nothing i tell you. N-O-T-H-I-N-G!! sometimes i doubt if he even loves me. but i knew better than to ask out loud. no, i keep these inside.

after 1 week plus finally got a job. he also never feel happy for me. just think that he rarely got weekday off then i must spend time with him. what about the time i waste pining for him because i have nothing better to do? might as well make it useful right. what about when i specially take time off or even leaves to accompany him for scholarships interviews.. then now i ask him if can accompany me to my first day at work. what did i get? a straight NO. WASTE HIS TIME. to him i am but a worthless freak. how all these make my heart feel. well i don't really know how to put them into words. but it really truly horribly sucks.

i know he is not like every other guy. but why the over excessive PRIDE and EGO?