dont know why..

i feel like a complete fool today

i studied so hard for biology

in fact it was a total of 7 days!

and i thought i knew how to do the paper

but why did it end up that i FAILED?

even though i say i'm not

but i cant help feeling disturbed

i dont want consolation

i only need to put in more efforts

more than what i put in this time round

when i thought the ocip ppt will be over soon,

the date for ppt has been postpone to T3

i feel that we have let down the teachers

they seem pretty disappointed

by what we presented to them

the slides, the late rehearsal and things...

so much so that they decided to take charge

i'm soooooooooooooo tired lar

i'm lagging behind everything

and i simply refuse to do anything about it

why am i such a big time slacker?

even the slackest in class is working hard

but not me, so what's my problem?

and then guitar is like 4 days per week now

after guitar reach home = no mood do work

there's absolutely no way

i'm gonna be able to buck up

at the rate i'm going, i'm committing suicide

irony is i know i can work harder

but i cease to believe that working hard

will reap in any results cos' i've lost hope!

actually i'm beyond hope and cure.

school just absolutely sucks for me

though i know it's not for some people.

its just my attitude kinda thing ya know...

monday to friday all packed till late

by guitar and ocip presentation...

somehow, some way

i will survive all these.

i know i will.

i can do it

if i believe in it.

so i have to learn to believe

have trust in myself.

that day is only just around the corner

but before i reach it,

i've to continue working hard

to earn it.