i'm going CRAZY!!!

it's onli been less than 2 hours and i'm back here agn.. i realli am a listless soul eh. i am totally grumpy and menacing now.. feeling so YAPPLING MOODY, like the MAD-EYE MOODY in harry potter book 4 i think.. dont piss me further, i may chew ur head off!


basically i've decided to call it a day. i'll see what i can do tml i guess.. i'm seriously not in the mood to torture myself anymore..


sometimes i really wonder am i suffering from some mental illness?

how come whenever i feel anxious i start peeling my fingers (u guys should
understand what i mean if u saw me in action b4) until it is red and
raw.. i know it sounds disgusting that's why i'm afraid i got mental problem
(anw i already stay pretty near IMH, should anything happen also easy delivery).
some more it doesnt even feels pain when i do it.. the peeling thing just comes
so naturally to me.


then there's the keep to myself part.. i can just start crying suddenly without reasons.. or over little little things.. or when i get upset i keep very quiet without any symptoms.. i will just shut up and continue doing my stuffs without appearing to be angry or anything..

know what i mean? i feel slightly zi bi.. those kids that keep to themselves bout everything.. just that mine is mild.. or maybe i aint even crazy, cos no mental patients will admit they're mental right..