not so soon..

so many times the idea of totally giving up studying and not care bout my results anymore struck me while i was k-ing my notes.. as many times i gave the idea a miss and cont'd to mug as hard as i could.. but in the end i realised i learnt nth at all.. my mind is absolutely blank now and i have no idea what am i doing or have been doing. looking through the ionic eqm revision qn was worse, i dont even know how to do anything right from qn 1.. i know i must sound pathetic but i just cant think straight anymore. they say to do org chem TYS MCQs cos everythings from there.. but judging at my rate i dont even have time for maths revision much less chem TYS..

YES i know.. then why am i still online now? because the urge to give up is so great and inviting now i dont feel like fighting it anymore.. i'm tired as a dog. i fell aslp on the sofa so that i wont slp too long.. and now i've got a terrible headache and neck-ache.. i realli dont know what am i doing..

can i give up now pls? i very much want to lie down on the bed in an air-con room and snuggle in to dreamland.. but i know too that it's EVEN MORE not possible to happen. i will feel even more like a loser should i do that right now. so i shall have to go back and continue calculating the DAMN pH of the TOTALLY UNEARTHLY IDIOTIC combinations of soln that the tr have bothered to put together on tt SHITTY piece of paper.. i wonder when will i even get to try mixing the soln myself.. HA~