ramblings & babblings

today was my bio blk test.. if i fail dis time i realli dont know wad to say 'cos basically i thought the paper was pretty okay.. so if okay still fail then -> =.=" but there are also ppl who find the paper pretty tough.. and seemingly they put in alot of effort to study too.. so why?

anyway i had been thinking and thinking about my problem of inability to think for myself.. as in u know.. have no depth when discussing about general stuffs or basically talk cock when others are discussing on real solid topics.. HA! get the picture? making myself sound like a big fat brainless git huh?! but i AM really brainless when it comes to current affairs, i just dont know wad i shud do bout it mans.

while being confused over my own life, i also realised that many ppl ard me are beginning to learn to take their own stands on social issues and support them with solid proofs and stick to them. and here i am still listening to everything and agreeing to all of them.. unable to hold onto my own opinion.. sometimes i just feel so verbally disabled.. dumbfounded.. unable to utter a single argument.. yes that's right i dont know how to hold an argument.. sad eh?!

all the crap i complained about on everything.. they're just rubbish.. u know the junks that ppl throw away.. sometimes i just feel like an empty shell.. despite all that i've said, i doubt i even understand what i was saying.. even now i'm also losing track of wad i'm saying as i type.. so i might as well stop i guess.. the lesser i say the lesser things i get wrong.. i'm just so TOOOOT up..

while i was feeling brainless.. i also played with html codings.. it was a disaster.. but i'll still link it.. i mean why not.. show ppl how stupid i am.. that's my purpose of living aint it?
here it is