to be cont'd

i was practically slapped
in the face last nite
however it was done verbally
...
oso dunno how to phrase it
wasnt realli her fault too
'cos i didnt exactly tell her
bout the whole process
...
so after the "verbal slap"
i still had to laugh
i still had to joke
i still had to fool ard
...
as if i felt nth to wad she said
as if i dun feel the stinging pain
as if i even wanted it to happen
as if i have forgotten bout him
...
its not like i'm gonna break down
not again, not in public
i definitely do not want
to appear soooo weak anymore
somehow putting on a brave front
makes things hurt me lesser
or maybe i'm trying not to feel it
anw both ways i'll soon be numb