growing up

i've just promised myself
i wanna be an ATTITUDE gurl
as from today onwards


i dont want to be too affected
by all the stuffs around me
like it or not i think its cool
dont blame me for my aloofness
treat it as me protecting myself


did smth so crude today
flung momma's hand away
when she wanted to pull me
in under the umbrella
somewhr sheltered fr the sun
some way to repay her huh.

i'm sorry momma'
i nv meant to hurt u
i nv meant to make u cry
(not today, but THAT day)
but tonight,
i'm learning how to grow up

anw felt kinda bad after it
cuz' i realli didnt mean it
i had thought it was my sis's hand
can still rem how proud i am
when momma used to hold my arm
when we cross the road together


i had this swelling ego
cos she never do that to jie and di
after the 3 of us grew up
but she still does that to me


maybe from another perspective,
it may seem that
i'm still a child in her eyes
meaning i'm still behaving
like an immature kid


so maybe i should
好好犯性