4e1 bbq @ costa sands "pasir ris"

had dis sec 4 gathering
cum bbq cum chalet
@ costa sands "pasir ris"
not costa sands downtown east..
haha.. so wu long..
cos we didn't noe it's diff
end up outside downtown de
den need pay to go in
stranded den need to call for help
"again" jus like every yr b4..
LoLx
tink mel, sh n me break record
for alwix losing our way..


heard sumfinks frm him
but dun tink i shud say anything
cos will qian she alot of ppl
den i will bcum like qian gu zui ren
jus feel dat as a class..
den shudn't haf so many diputes lor
it was fate dat brought all of u tog
so if reali bu he den find out the reason
and iron tings out?
if reali nao4 till so jiang1
den oso cnt like ostracize ma..
it's the worst way to treat anyone lor
tink i've said enuf on dis topic le
=X


yr 2005 is onli <24 hrs away
a tsunami occurred taking wif it nearly 100k of lives..
how many ppl craze to earn tt amt of money.
but imagine 100k..
tt's alot alot alot of lives
jus within a matter of minutes n seconds
dey are gone, taken away from the sides of their beloved..
it's reali a very saaads way to welcome the new yr..
but nobody cud haf imagined it it was totally unexpected..
the victims n debris left behind to clear
the many decomposing n unidentified corpses..
the loss their families are facing
the affected areas facing diseases n famines
the many many difficulties dey're going thru der
while the ppl here are cracking their brains
on where dey shud go
or wad dey shud do on new yr eve
see the irony deR?
we are too fortunate to learn apathy
(putting ourselves in ppl's shoes)


did i write too much?
sumtimes it feels like i'm biting my tongue as i write on my blog..
cos i feel as if i'm speaking too weirdly le dis new yr..
no new yr resolution..
cos i feel tt dey give me alot of pressures
initially i planned to lose weight
but the more mindful i am of it
the more weight i seem to be putting on
i feel like the more stress i give myself
the more i procrastinate
so why not make it more relaxed
n still get the same job done?
however dis is not to discourage ppl frm having one
hey! for all i noe, it may work for some ppl
so why not give it a try?
tt's wad the profs are encouraging ppl to do ain't it?
*smiles widely*

saaads saaads daaay..

duno why so moody today..
seem to be getting forgetful le..
things happened today..
dun wan to say too much..
ltr affect my mood..

bbq wif team xinhui~

woah.. today ultra fun!!
had bbq wif xinhui ppl..
haha reali enjoyed myself..
we eat n play tog..
den i even push da jie into the pool..
bleahs.. in the end..
she caught a cold..
SORRIE DA JIE!!!


cos dey say she got bring extra clothes..
but actuali she didn't..
so she was like wet
n got nth dry to change into lor..
den the party clubroom(??)..
is fully air-conditioned n v cold..


ooooo...
we oso exchanged pressies..
potluck + lucky draw style
den i got a bear bear..
is aaron buy come de lor..
super kewt..
julia oso prepared pressie..
for lesson plan ppl..
feel so bad cos i nv buy anything for her..


bleahs~
den the present she gave
brought about nostalgia..
reminds me of the times in "len fang"
all the memories jus start to come back lo..
missed those times man..


bbq food tt time play like siao la..
planta put alot..
honey dab everything..
den ivan is like everything throw..
dropped quite a few corns n sweet potatoes..
too clumsy le..


played alot of black magic..
learnt a few new tricks..
hehe gonna use it to trick ya!!
be careful orh..


den got ice cream lor!!!
haha dat one i reali chiong to eat..
cos i noe no chance to eat le..
banning myself frm tt..
for some personal reasons..
hee..


noe hor..
at first i tot ms poh's hse v far..
den in the end so near lor..
meet dem at yck mrt..
den take 70 go der..
but actuali go 1 big round..
den is can walk from home de..
waste le 1 buck de bus fare lo..
but i clever..
walk home jus now.. haha..
wif juanie!
den we tok lor..
didn't noe she stay so near too..


anw..
am reali glad for today's bbq..
to tink jus now was abit
reluctant to go n meet dem..
-.-" (bish!ed myself)

post xmas..

went to vernon's 4d meeting..
it's onli fair rite..
he went mine ytd ma..


we were late lor..
haha n it's cos of me..
but the meeting was fun..
at least it felt more lively
den last nite..
whr the atmosphere was v sullen..
the ppl der are also..
more willing to speak out
and share their 'gong de' ba..


hmm the ywd (leader?)
very welcoming lo..
tried to make me at home..
den dun feel v awkward to be der..
dey oso very cheerful..
so it sorta helped ba..


even someone as anti-social as me..
oso can feel welcomed..
means dat dey reali v sociable lor..
ha~
all in all,
reali did enjoy myself todae..

a lameful xmas wif dear dear..

went to watch ppl practice
dance moves for upcoming ygm
with vernon..
sat der n watch
instead of joining in..
it was a really fun session..
maybe nxt time i will join in ba..


after dance practice
der was some ice breaker games..
got blindfold n another
step step step game..
both oso got morale one ok..
shows the impt of
trusting each other;
communication;
and teamwork..
haha.. pretty fun lo..


den after tt took 166
so suay lor..
the bus got someone vomit on it b4..
so smeeeeeeeeeeelly..
den bth hor..
haf to move n change seat..
haha.. sian 1/2..


reach amk to return lib book..
ran into a weird guy..
he was sucking a pesiphire
(dunno how to spell..)
carrying a weird plant..
den he took out a btl
n spray sth on the plant..
duno find him scary..


den last prg for the day..
was late for my 4d meeting..
vernon came n join me too..
haha.. den at the end of the session
he was tricking the kids again..
den lidat lo..
got a kid real pampered..
den making a scene till
the parents haf to bring him home
n cnt stay n listen..
(some thots not keyed in..)


tt's bout all le ba.. oh ya..
at the 88 bus stop near my hse ya..
der was an ad for learning swimming..
den hor.. the irony is..
they put sharks as backgrd for the ad..
haha.. den vernon was saying..
who wud dare learn after seeing the ad?
funny ba..


basically tt's bout all ba..
wad a xmas huh..

merry xmas... eve!!!

oso nth much to blog today la..
jus wan to say...
today is xmas eve le wor..


to all peeps out der..
merry xmas..
and a happy new year..


wasn't feeling gud last nite..
cos thot someone nv reply me..
den in the end is cos..
m1 n singtel fighting..
ISSIT NOT?!?!
why alwix cnt rcv msg de..
ha~ idiotic..
make me feel lost last nite..


to da jie..
cheer up le ba..
the guy is a nincompoop..
dunno why u angry wif him la..
but frm wad i see..
he's v irritating..

meeting up xuan..

peeps..
if u're interested in





pls visit site okie..


today.. so woah..
woke up super early today..
to meet up wif xuan
but still late..
so long nv crap tog le..
reali missed her rubbish..
den we complain bout lotsa tings..
sch work, trs, blah..


anw she wanted to buy
dis bdae present for her fren..
so we went bugis village la..
but it was too early..
alot of shops haven open..
so we went to take
"DA TOU TIE"
den end up do stoopid tings..
in front of the camera..


take le go back shops all open le,
but xuan almost kena 'keng'..
cos she din noe can bargain..
the person wan charge her $25
when can cut to <$20 lor..
haha.. lucky i tell her can..
so lidat lo..


went amk lib to borrow ref bk..
see me so guai..
den luckily bro let me use pc..
so i can do some of my stuffs..

shopping wif mc n chun

had a great time today
catching up wif mc n chun..
heard alot of stories..
farni, angry, sad..
alot n alot of stories..


these few days..
i learnt tt many things
aren't wad dey seem to be..
not everyting can be determined
jus by observing..
sometimes u haf to exp it
den can u reali understand dem..


x'mas is jus round the corner..
not reali v into it..
but wondering wad i can do
for my frens out der..
jus a'lil sth maybe
to thank dem for staying by my side..
thru all dis yrs..
esp mel,kel n hui


alwix show ur gratitude to ppl..
以感激的心情看待所有的事物
tt's sth i reali learnt..
be grateful..
tt u can love n be loved..


sound too philosophical le hor..
but guess i tink too much le..
mummy say i alwix haf tt blur look..
like i'm constantli tinking bout sth..
haha.. nvm.. at least
i noe my brain is functioning well..

visiting aunt choo & ah qi..

went to visit ah qi..
she so kewt..
played wif her..
she keeps laughing..
till i oso bth..
laugh wif her..
reali cheered me up..
tink she likes the song
'tWiNkLe x2 LiTtLe sTaRs'
cos she alwix laugh
everytime i sing the song..


had planned to do my work der..
but in the end still cmi..
cos haf to play wif ah qi..
if not she get too bored..
den maths independent learning..
oso need reference..
e chem notes i brought
mostly waas revision of sec 4 work..
so nvm ba.. bia tml..


wah lao..
damn angry la..
i got a com which i cnt use now..
thx to darn maple n my bro..
wad the !@#%^&..
play whole day le now still wan fight wif me..
helo..
i onli touch the com for how long?
den he keep saying..
'er jie, can play tell him..'
wad..
scared i swallow the com up meh..
dots..
see u small dun fight wif u la..
at most go study or slp lor..
no com no big deal..
it's not e end of e world..
HA~

karekano.. arima soujiro

jus now took out my karekano vcd
n replayed them..
from the very 1st disc..
realised i got alot in common,
wif arima soujiro..
other den the fact tt
he is very handsome..
gud at sports n studies..
n an abusive family..


i reali feel like him..
like i cnt tell anyone
my inner deepest most secrets..
tings i wun even write down..
tings i onli tink to myself..
dunno who is the real me..
totally confused wif who i am..


but i prefer to remain like dis..
pls dun attempt to change me..
or convince me the opposite..
it'll onli bring more harm..

artichoke

i am an artichoke..
dun try to understand me..
der's no pt trying to read me..
i prefer solitaire..


leave me alone..
let me well myself up..
dun open me up..
u'll onli hurt me dis way..

drowning my sorrows..

if onli i can get drunk..
maybe..
jus maybe..
i can feel better..

bad bad day..

i'm sad..
very sad..
but i'm not going to say too much..
i jus need silence..
peace..
some time..


found dis midi..
my mood likes it..
so i put it up..
hope no one finds it
cranky or irritating..


i'll go back to my
secluded corner now..

van & six plus NKF concert

manage to get tix to
van n 6 plus nkf de concert..
it was awesome..
reali nice..
buden oso abit paiseh la..
cos tix is get frm sis de fren..
den everything happened in a rush..
din reali get the chance to thank her..
she oso v pretty lor..
air stewardess..


haha.. anw..
the concert abit propaganda oso la..
alot on nkf de stuffs..
but the ting is during the performance..
someone did sth reali stupid..
throw all my face..
jus to get a van's poster..
dunno which someone lor..
stand on the chair n wave..
den van reali throw give him..
-.-


loved both van n 6 plus de performance..
den hor.. sad case is..
no camera.. frens haf la..
their hp or digi cam..
but my hp de cmi lor..
so now haf to wait for the rest to upload theirs..
can't wait to see da pics man..


so now..
can onli use words to describe the ting..
but.. knowing how limited my dictionary is..
i'm usuali dumbfounded at describing..


but today got to meet up wif mel,kel,hui..
still got xuan frm aj de..
haha.. xuan's fren who came oso v kewt..
eyes v big n round de..
glad to noe her today..
n n n.. oh i saw glenn n mel's cousin..
called daryl i tink..
den hopefully dey enjoyed it ba..
i noe mel did cos she even bought 6plus de album..
haha kewl huh..
too bad all of dem got prg after dat..
had hoped we cud go out for dinner..
n catch up or sth.. hehe..
passed dem e souvenirs frm china le..
hopefully dey liked it ba..
cos reali got meaning de..


oso..
i've removed the bkgrd music for my blog le..
some say cranky some say irritating..
so.. silence is golden..
i'm not gonna put any music liao..
hehe.. enjoy ur gold fren..

memorial service

flu's getting better oredi..
last nite thx to ah di's
nim jiom cold remedy..
(aka ger gen tang)
very effective..
cos last nite i cnt slp..
den he saw me v xin ku..
so he v kindly make a cup for me..
den todae oredi feeling much better le..
haha.. thanks KEE KEE!!

since i was oredi feeling better,
naturally i went to late mr john lim's memorial..
a dumb ting i did was to wear purple..
den i guess der's some culture shock..
wasn't reali able to appreciate
all dat was planned & going on..
den i had a headache halfway thru..
so i 'bie' until near the end den left..

haha.. had a taste of mac's
"grilled chicken foldover"..
it's so damn ex lor.. scary..
$4.75 per foldover..
vernon tinks it's okae..
but i tink it sux..
bought another one home..
dad n bro took to it..
mum n sis totally dissed it..
haha.. i reali wonder..
is dis a gender issue ma?

flu sux

i hate flu..
my head hurts..
my throat croaks..
my nose's blocked..
n running at miles/hr..
oww..

feeling crappier..

sicks..


nose running like siao..
stomach pain like crap..
feeling crappier den ever..
issit cos of my flu?
but cnt be bothered bout it oso la..


buy txtbk wif ah di..
wth..
geog dun haf stk..
den uniform shop nv open..


-.-


my sista bugging me..
to park maple for her?
say her selfish..
den i oso selfish ma..
cos i use com dun let her park..
but let her park..
den is like she alone use 2 PCs..
heck le jus use ba..
maple S U X..


anw.. was saying?
today nv do much..
completely wasted a day..
play fotoshop wif ah di..
den was suppose to do my job lo..
nv do gongyo oso..


!!STOP PROCRASTINATING!!


for heaven's sake..
ur A's nxt yr..
ur hols assignments are all undone..
ur files are in a big mess..
the clothes..
u haf to fold them all the time..
can't u plan ur time?
harlo..
u've got like 2 weeks?
den u're doomed..
dun u noe how serious it is?
cont' procrastinating..
and u're as gud as shyt..
a huge chunky fragrant pile of dung..
manure..


ha..
dun wan to be tt?
den start doing wad u shud be doing..
idiot..
u're stoopid..
so u haf to work harder to catch up..
not be the dung u are now..


?!UNDERSTAND?!

i dunno wad to say..

i did it..
did gongyo wif mummy dis morn..
haha..
initially abit paiseh..
but awhile den ok le..
chanted for more den 30 min..
which i learnt is VICTORY..
wahaha~


ha.. oh ya..
went to see the ocip de fotos le..
omg..
der were sooooo many..
it was scary..
wasn't reali interested in dvlping..
cos v ex..
den i was broke..
ha..
anyway..
4R @ 40 cents each..
38 albums in total..
but i onli ordered ard 45 fotos..
got alot memorable n nice de..
but.. too bad..
i cnt afford to take all of dem..
mummy oso say..
dis type of tings..
lang fei qian..
wad to do..
neng sen ze sen..
bleahs..


rcv a 3 mth present from va..
felt reali completely horrid..
nv expected to rcv one..
n nv get him anything too..
i'm so terrible ba..
was reali touched..
when he took it out..
tot he wanted to pass me..
the chocs frm his sis..
he told me last time..
thx alot if u're readin dis..


+++++++++++++++++++++++


mr lim's church service:
- dis fri 7.30 pm
- @ marine parade touch
centre FCBC


+++++++++++++++++++++++


memorial in nyjc:
- dis sat 6.00pm
- bring a white candle & a stalk
of white flower


+++++++++++++++++++++++

ST articles on their death..

they did not deserve,
to die so horribly..



some articles i found on STI:



Honeymooners die in NZ car crash

Kindred spirits who shared love of teaching

Army roped in to retrieve body

Life.. is jus so Fragile..

rcv the news today..
mr john lim,
pe tr in ny,
he died on his honeymoon,
in a car crash,
at new zealand,
along wif his wife,
a tr in pierce sec..

the news came so suddenly..
2 lives lost jus lidat..
so unpredicted n sad..
but tt's life isn't it?
all's unexpected n fragile..
u nv noe wad's gonna happen
the next moment..

take the principal of st. mag..
she died all of a sudden too..
in her office (frm wad i heard)..

all these tings happen..
n i can't help but ask myself..
why am i born?
wad for?

give it some serious thots..
everyone dies some day..
so.. wad's the point of living?

draggin ourselves to sch/work..
doing tings we dislike..
stressing to attain better results..
wad is the purpose of living?
ppl work so hard..
to earn more money..

wad for?
someday all of us r gonna die..
be it a successful life,
or a failure,
it'll all end up burnt,
into ashes..
n buried somewhr..

so wad's the point?

pieces of me - ashlee simpsons


On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me


Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts


[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me


I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care


Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have


[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me


How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah


On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe


[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

hmm..
first post..
ok wad shud i write?
alot of things happened within the past yr..
so much tt i stopped thinking..
i ceased to look back..
to learn from my failures..
to pick myself up..
to grow stronger psychologically..
i'm emotionally too weak..
so for the upcoming yr..
i have to grow stronger..
to bcum a better person..

life is short..
enjoy it..
dun dwindle on the past..
learn from them..
den move on..

i've got to learn how..
to do so by the end of nxt yr..
i hate to say dis but..
tt shall be my -
NEW YR RESOLUTION
ha~ i said it..