i'm disappointed.. we got silver...

after training for countless weeks
after practicing 6 days per week
we the nyjc guitar club got SILVER
i mean come on lar,
we also didnt actually put in alot of effort right?
so why am i feeling so disappointed and sad?
yes i cried after we heard the results
i expected silver given our performance
but i still cant fight the sourness i feel


u know ppl used to say u reap what u sow
now then did i truly understand what this means
although it isnt 100% that
u'll succeed if u put in ur best,
but u'll never know if u dont try it.
the regret i felt when i realise it's over


thoughts like
"if only i had spent more effort to practice"
"we were almost there, but we still cant make it"
"why arent we able to do as well as the others?"
"we are a disappointment to tomas..."
"we could have done it if only we could..."


tomas our instructor cum conductor
was taking 3 schools under him
TJ got GOLD HONOUR
MJ got GOLD
NY got? god damn SILVER
i mean come on lar...
we all know tomas is reknown in this field lor
so if we failed, it aint his fault
its just us and our laziness


i just hate this feeling of losing
especially to RJ and TJ
RJ because they look damn arrogant la
TJ cause' someone i dont like is in the sch


i totally swear to myself
that i wont feel how i feel now
when i get back my A'level results nxt yr.
this i promise myself...
from today onwards its mug MUG MUG
i dont want this feeling!!!
it sucks!!!

"TOMAS I'M REALLY REALLY SORRY"