great. school. tml.

school starts tomorrow.

the start to endless mugging. like it or not, play-time is up. the NEED to study hard have never been as great as it is now. i dont want to care what other people may think of me already. no point trying so hard anymore. if that is what they think, then let it be. i must say that i am indeed very disappointed, but i am not going to let the incident affect me any more than just disappointment. at least i know i have friends more worthy of my concerns. BAH~

signifying also, the beginning of a dilemma on how i should behave. i am so going to feel like a FAKE freak. but i guess it is better to leave things as they are. any more intrusion on my part is only going to make matters worse. be quiet. keep very very silent. no point crying over spilled milk. cant be bothered anymore. if that's how you treat, then i also have nothing to say.

thanks to hui man. if not i wouldn't have 看得那么开. no point really. all these craps are just going to pull me down. since the harm has already been done, it cannot be undone. so why let it destroy me further??? furthermore, it seems that there wont be any chance that any light will come out of it.