recently..

actually i've thot it thru
i shud learn to trust ppl more
hopefully i'll gain the trust of other's too
especially of those whom i dun wan to lose


i have to step out of the protective layers
i shudnt be too concerned abt my pride
i've got to do sth and it's got to be now!
dis thing shudnt have dragged for so long
it shud haf ended weeks ago
if i had dared to stand out and speak


yes, i've got to apologize to alot of ppl
for not being able to be a gud friend
but i'm going to improve
and hope things will take a turn
for the better

did sth to break thru the barrier wif "him"

at least now i made sure everything's clear

initially the problem was with me anw

so i mentioned for him not to wait

and what's left b/w us is just purely friendship

so i've made myself to believe in

friends meaning we are allowed to meet up

friends meaning we can relate to each other freely

friends meaning we care for each other

friends meaning der's no awkward feelings

hopefully things will work out better this way

confusion & embarrassment in school
stupid sam had to go and msg jj
der wasn't anything going on
she made it seem as if der is
and now i'm afraid he tinks i'm interested
what to do... i'm already in the hiding
just avoid direct contact with him at all

should i go NIE or SADM

mummy wont be pleased wif SADM

sister wont be pleased to hear NIE

but out of the many courses

these 2 are of which i'm interested in

others in the science faculty

they dont interest me at all

the job prospectives and stuffs

they're just so mundane

i've my heart and mind settled

it's either NIE or SADM

but which to choose from?

SADM's my dream hobby interest

NIE's more for money and stability

dont deny tt i enjoy giving tuition tho

so which should i choose?

changed my blogskin agn

this time more of coding than graphic

see what i mean my interest?

tho it's not good enough

at least i feel good doing it

"dream or stability?"