torn into 2 extremes

i've done it again... cheaterbugger bitch... i'm the bad guy... what if....? weird feeling coming over me. on and off, off and on... it is as if i'm alternately travelling between heaven and hell... the decision was made... but then sometimes the insecurity kicks in and i'm unsure of everything again...

i need time to be whole again... now it seems my feet are unable to touch earth...

better get back to studying... unless i wan to da bao that is...