no brain. bullshitting.

i left my brain somewhere so far, in order to stop thinking so much and to start mugging harder... so currently i am a brainless git. ha~

reckless and bluntness do not make a good pair together.. but that did not stop me from possessing both qualities. yes, i've wrecked alot of troubles with them too. saying things i shouldnt say at the "best" of times. so much so that when the damage has been done, then i start regretting doing what i've done. it feels like shit. no point keeping my mouth shut too. i wont learn from that, but only earn myself the label of being a coward.

i wanted a world where everyone speaks their mind so that it wont be so complicated. but i was wrong. it is only going to create pandemonium throughout the entire earth. being blunt is not equivalent to being straightforward. speaking what's on your mind is good provided it doesnt hurt the other party. i link things up so slowly that i always need people to explain things explicitly to me or fail to foresee what consequences my actions will bring, thus stirring up traumas.

got myself into trouble today for telling people off. "can you stop pushing?" that i repeated so many times to the kids around me when i got pissed. i must have offended many people, no doubt. from the looks that people gave me, i pretty much assumed that what i was doing was darn crude. but i didnt care. then again i thought, it made no difference whether i told them off not, because those further away were also pushing. bah~

people to people... if you dont talk, can there still be communication as, or even more, effective? body language: eye contact, facial expressions, actions, touch... do they work better? maybe i should try conversing more with my limbs and face... instead of my big mouth.

*brains shoved aside again.